Shock

same as usual got class 2day
but I don't have much to said
I just get shock today

study afternoon class today
after my first class
went to Tm point with Mr. Z
then we wanna confirm with the girl did she get our photostat IC
but the girl was not around
then we just leave our message to her
and we went off and get to class
after that cant take lift
because too many people and too slow
so suggested to walk up the stairs to 4th floor
gosh !! too high feeling tired and can't even breath
don't know why recently my breathing is bad !
then when I reach, I saw my ex boyfriend
he studying in the same college with me
is it true?? I think I'm dreaming
then I went into class
ask my friend to go out with me ..
then I saw again
Is really he, maybe I'm not dreaming
what ever, after that just continue the thing I wanna do

now I online
I suddenly saw his profile post something and shows out in my FB
then I press in it and look at his info to check out
he really studying my college now
he just started this year
maybe is may intake ...
I don't know and didn't even hope to asked
and don't even want to know !
just get shock , this world really very small !

even Mr. Z saw me before our intake started
he told me this
this world is really small I'm realize now !

Kay

Coursework

I think today's blog will have more thing to let me share over
go for the Lake Garden to take photograph for my coursework/contest
Theme :: Flora, Parks and Garden
11.30am finish our class and decided to have our lunch
after our lunch some ikut friend's car
and some ikut I take train to garden
1 of my friend who take train with us mention that she know how to go
but we walk further already
suppose to walk from our college it's more nearer
but never mind la we didn't hatred her.
just appropriate that we having exercise lo
not bad wad .. because I lazy exercise at home .. xD
we walk and walk until 'pengsan'
around an hour, we reach
Hooray !! we reach ! can capture photos then go home to take rest
while we walking to the orchid park
my friend see something that make us shock !
they walk in front me and I didn't know what is happening
just see my friend keep walk to me
and I tot it was snake !!! but it is not !
it is a kitty ! the kitty is sooooo pity, it get knock by a car
its mouth coming out blood, is going to let me cry
but 1 of my friend cry earlier then me ...
make my tears going to fall off my eyes !
then we advice her : we can't do anything, we just could let it stay over there
we really can't did anything, there's no pet's medical center near us
we got no car to fetch it to the pet's medical center
feel so sorry to that kitty :( *cry*

suddenly only I realize that my camera don't have battery
stupid charger doesn't fill up the battery for me
let me keep unhappy the whole journey without capture nice photos
AARRGGHH!!!!

have to save many battery but til the end
it 'die', just give up lo ~
and try to use my mobile phone to capture
wah !! phone capture is better than my camera
how come ?? 10.2mega pixels camera with 3.2mega pixels mobile phone
although both are also Sony brand
how come my friend also say that my phone can take nice photos also
my mobile phone is weird !

we stay there until 3pm
while we ready to go home
they suggest to take photos for our journey and we enjoy very much
they did bring the SLR camera
we suggest to use it to capture our sweat sweat face xD((:

we walk down to the bird park and take taxi back to the LRT station which near our college
then we say bye to each other
we are not going home together because we are the same destination
some take bus, some take LRT
mine is the most trouble transport
have to take LRT then change to KTM
aiks, always have to wait for the train also waste out many time dy

although this trip is quite unhappy for me because of the camera
but I did enjoy the day with them ~
long time didn't went out with a big gang
I'm back in the BIG gang ! really feel very very happy !
and did learn many things about taking photos
know which mode have to use ~
but next time I've to bring another camera to take the photos
have to learn another camera how its function

the photos below is captured by :

• Sony Cyber-shot TX-1

• Sony Ericsson k810i

hope to have another nice day with you guys (:
enjoy our college life and our sweet memory ((:

KAY

Beauty Fair

slept at 2am+ yesterday
the next morning need to wake up early and go for KLCC with my friend
can't wake up on time this morning
rush to the toilet and take my bath prepare all things

red bean soup and 'yau zha guai' as my breakfast
it is so black early in the morning, feeling cold ~
but I still wear singlet, wee(:

as normal I am the first one reach there
wait them for minutes
just standing there and be a stupid
11.45am take the LRT
then someone bring us get into the wrong LRT
need wait another 10minutes for the LRT
reach there is around 12.15pm
then we walk into the fair
first time go to this fair, don't know anything
they go to the counter and ask for infor
need to fill in form only can get in

walk for the whole hall
nothing special, those thing quite expensive
no money to buy
forget bout it , wait I got money only will go for the next time

1pm go for our lunch at Pizza Hut
service not very good
and I eat so full ... almost can't move jo ..
*kua jiong*
then we just walk and walk then go out the garden there take picture

is just few part of it ...
lazy to write dy
don't know what to write
blank in my brain

I'll stop here
Good Night Friend

Kay

abnormal

He didn't sms me for days ~
I mean automatically la
I tahan myself don't sms him
but couldn't, I sms him he just reply
like no mood to reply me
and I just don't bother it
I'm try acting nothing happen
but it's hard and I can't ...


skip --->>

was too abnormal in front of Mr.T
Oh my goodness every time when he fetch me home just keep hit him
and don't know why I will be like that
I try to not be like that
but still couldn't !!
really hate myself why my attitude was like a boy
not look like a gal !
*cry*

Assignment

Assignment is start with my course
4 assignment straight away
1 is for referencing the other 3 is for diff subject for my course

Today going to discuss assignment with my classmate
I'm late today
he reach McD and keep waiting us
Sorry , thought my mum fetch can be late bit
but she got so many things to do then I go late today
12pm we reach McD wait for the lunch meal
wee(: McD my favorite
A medium set of Fillet-O-Fish , soft drinks without ice and a fries ~
wow my friend eat the Double Fillet-O-Fish
I think I can't finish if I order
3 of us order the same food Fillet-O-Fish

after finish our meal we start finding the information that we want
quite boring in the middle of time
we find somelittle information and going to facebook-ing
we having a bit lazy mood today
don't know why, then we have a look for the picture of Dusun Eco
next month going to have a camp over there
then we chit-chatting over there and stay there for few hours

this weekend need to take picture to submit for the competition
wonder why need to submit it
we're still new student what, not really know to use the Digital SLR camera leh !
some using compact camera
we're not very PRO with it
wish me luck, not hope to get the 1st
but hope to get experience !

sleepy already 8.45am class for tomorrow wanna to rest early luu
Good Night .

Kay

get doubt

today go for a fair @ PWTC
but I can't even wake up early
too tired, let me fall sleepy
my friend message me around 10am
but I don't know
wake up @ 10.30am,saw her message straight go to the bathroom and prepare
then only I reply her
just drink half glass of milk and eat some biscuit for my breakfast

reach PWTC @ 12pm+
let my lenglui wait for long , sorry ya (:
then we walk to the location of the fair
but we can't find the fair
I walk for the whole exhibition hall but don't have the fair that we want
then we feel sad and suggest to go have meal @ TS
my lenglui pay for the taxi fee
feel it embarrassing to let her pay for all
then she say next time only I treat her
Okay, deal .

then after 2hours staying in the shop
I suggest to go walk
because I want to go buy name card holder and purse
then lenglui say want go to washroom
when we get ready to leave 2 girls ask my friend
"did you saw a phone just now ?"
her phone is lost and she use the same phone with my friend
she thought my friend steal it !
stupid ! why we wanna steal it
then we leave ... and I just forget the thing happen
continue my shopping
walk in a shop and suddenly a guy walk near us and said
" miss, miss, do you really didn't saw the phone just now ?"
gosh, run to find us ..
then we walk out to the shop and talk
they keep asking bout the phone and they doubt us
the girl who lost the phone keep telling us she is not doubt us
but she does, just advice her and agree what she says
she says " I got very important thing inside my phone,so I just want to comprehend,not going to doubt "
I said " I know you not doubt us, we understand, if you not trust we didn't steal then you check our bags !"
she did check ! if you're not doubt us, you won't check my bag !
fine ! I don't care anymore ! just feeling no mood to shop anymore !
because you break my mood !
ISH ! this let you got a lesson
don't simply put your phone away from you when you're doing other things !

before going home accompany lenglui go find friend ~
then go home !

is late now ~ 12.09am
going to sleep soon ! having class tomorrow ~
feeling tired , good night ~
enjoy your sleep and have a nice dream (:

memorable

for me is a quite memorable day today
same as usual
having class today
10.10am break, friend suggest to go Sg Wang today after class
just got one class today, and is quite early they don't want to go home earlier
same as me ~ is nothing to do @ home
then join them together

we're having 6 people going together
we took LRT to Time Square
when we reach, we plan to go for which Kbox
then I book for the room
1pm start for our K then end up @ 4pm
gosh ~ quite long time to staying inside
no choice ... the first time I sing until feeling tired
the last 30minutes I keep eating and eating those snacks

while we wanna go to take LRT it rain heavily
then 1 person take the umbrella go LY find her friend
then 5 of us walk to the monorel station
besides 2 girls stay back for having shopping and wait for someone
3 of us go to monorel and go home ..
things happen unluckily ~
the technical problem of monorel make us stuck @ the station for about 30minutes
hate it ... maybe is the cause of raining heavily
just standing outside of the monorel and keep waiting and waiting ...
just talking to my friend and let the time run faster ...
suddenly a guy come to us and said : they don't know how long time will the technical problem will fix ... maybe 1hour, 2hour .. you may get down to the counter and get your refund ...
my gosh ~ wait for so long time , now only said don't know how long time can fix the problem

what to do .. we just can walk to the bus station and take bus lo ~
the bus station is very long !!
it takes 1 hour and 30 minutes to the station
is feeling tired and hungry
looking @ my friend eating and I can't ...
scare later reach home can't have dinner
this journey is really memorable
first time walk so far to the bus station ~
I hate Malaysia's transportation !
aiks ! when I reach home is already 7pm+
the next day still have to study ...
decide to sleep early ...

Happy Mother's Day

a very happy mother's day to all the mother in the whole world
happy mother's day to my dearest mummy
but unlucky can't celebrate with her
because of some reason ...
even a present also can't gift her ..

ByeBye

have no idea with it ..
I'm not sleeping in the midnight ..
sms with friends ~
facebook-ing ...
today damn tired, had whole day class
although feeling tired but thinking someone in the midnight it wont be tired
but maybe today is the last day
(some of the reason)

woke up early in the morning and prepare to meet my girls @ MCD
guess what , I reached there @ 8.20am
we sat in MCD and chat so many things
even ghost story .. we talk bout it too
Scary !! times ran out fast
going to had our first class, was going out to MCD and walking in the street
my lovely little girl shocked me and another girl
while the time was still talking bout 'story'
I get shocked because I'm not brave to listen it ..

first class was finish, lecturer want us to do assignment
what the hell is that?? so fast !
not even get what she said as well
forget bout it, went for our lunch
those drinks is too sweet and those maggi goreng taste 'so good'
my gosh, how to had the meal like this kind ...
but I just had a drink no appetite to ate my lunch
because my breakfast was still inside my tummy and feeling very full

second class lecturer was very funny than others
he only want us to use english language in his class, or else he'll charge us
want us to bring along dic. to class...
so heavy leh mr ber....
why cant I use electronic one ??
more easier for me to bring it la ~
fine ~ break time should not be late ... must be on time
no problem la ~ hahas
the most funny thing was .. he is a tricky person
he keep asking the word and let us said in other language
like MCC -> mong cha cha
tricky lecturer, but funny

the last class was the class I hate so much
very boring, lecturer doesn't told some jokes sometimes..
make me feel sleepy
today as well , because not enough sleep yesterday night
luckily it does not rain when my class finish
or else I cant go find Mr T to fetch me back
walk with my friend to SgWang
she wanna go meet for her friend..
she felt it was so far ... but is true , very far from our college walk to there
but what to do .. I've get used to it .. sorry my friend
next time you better choose LRT
haha ... bring Mr T drove to round the garden ..
then reach Kepong @ 8pm
had our dinner ... but I just go there accompany him ..
I just had some snack food and a drink ...
no appetite .. like not feeling well ...

I don't like the useless girl beside someone ..
really over ... no choice she's just a customer in my eye ..
not care bout it ... and just say Bye to him and good luck as well ...



Don't have to work tomorrow , don't have to go for class tomorrow ...
quite a freedom day
love it so much ~
Good Night everyone ...

Kay (my new name ...)

another new month *

I'm very oppressive
I'm stuck with my family problem
I'm stuck with my college
I'm stuck with my time

stuck with many things that I've to complete it by myself
anyway, I have to try my best to done it ~
now a days taking train and LRT alone ...
looking at those workers and students also
how could they crowded into the train together every morning
this morning, woke up early 5.45am
to stretch oneself for 15minute before that
then only I went to the toilet and packing myself into a nice look ~

6.45am start the destination to train station
I reached the station at 7.08am
the first train reach at 7.15am then while waiting saw so many people
they were walking nearer and nearer to me who scared they cant get into the train
when the train reached, all of them forge ahead into the door
Oh My Gosh !! how can they did this ?
I give up and not to do what they did
just wait for the next train ... 7.20am
Kajang train, but not going to my stop at the station which I'm going to
the next train again ... finally I get into it this time without any thrust at 7.35am
reach my final destination at 7.50am then went to bank to bank in money for my friend
reach college at 8.08am, was very early
then I was just sitting at the lobby and wait for my friend
waiting waiting and waiting ...
8.20am my lovely lengluii came
and she was so rush ... and few minutes more another gal reached
then we went to our class early and sat on the nice place ~
I wonder how could they forge ahead every morning ??
and also my senior he told me had to forge ahead to the train or else cant get into it
regret ~ aiks !!

skip skip skip --->>>
today start morning sessions
not very get used to it
but will get used few weeks more
the first time have to study the same class with more than 16 people in College
hmm today's lecturer quite humor ...
just one class and after that said Bye to him
I tot Moral is very bored .. but can it be no ??
may be today he talk so many funny story , jokes
then I felt that Moral is quite interesting
get a 15minute break every of his class

skip skip --->>>

feel like time is not enough for me to use
time go fast everyday
hmm felt like this year got many problems for those couples,family problem etc.
friends around me got many problem with their relationship
especially secondary school mates and others as well
some of them break up ~ last few week we went out still knew that they were still together happily
but now they were separate and become friend ~
what happen to this year?
even though I got problem also
Family problem
aiks ~ had to ISH myself
keep argue everyday, what to do, just have to respect what they said
and I'm under age , can't speak any ...
hope this year time goes fast and next year will be a better year !!!

not celebrating and festival this year ...
quite boring ! not that meaning I don't want
But the reason I can't

Kay wanna live happily ever after
study as happy as I can
be more talkative as I can
thinking more mellow
etc .

last day for April ~

less update my blog

nothing special happen

so just update when I feel boring ~

time going very fast

may is coming and is Labour Day tomorrow

can take rest tomorrow but Im going out with my friends~

day after day, i've to get used and accept the true that he is gone

finally, parents is getting better than earlier compare when we were doing the funeral

I've to be strong that out of all your mind~

college already in the third week

yesterday really not so concentrate what did lecturer said

but get some point from her

not concentrate because Im not really understand

this course is really hard ...

but I still have to do all the best

must not let my parents and daddy feel that Im useless

had my lunch with my friends

then we chit-chat all the time

and we discuss bout our SLC

so exciting, hope it comes faster

cant wait for it ~ really hope to go for it .. had already hand in my form

wee (:

our class start late ...

but we ended early ...

today we get 20mins break so lucky

after that we had our activity and need to hand in ..

can't help my friend to sign her attendance

she went back early for some reason but never told lecturer ...

because lecturer really never realize she has went

but so sorry that didn't help her to take attendance

because lecturer was looking at me while I sign

Apologize to her ~

after class rain heavily ...

*sad* because someone don't know the direction from his college to mine

what to do.. just had to went back myself lo

first time went home from college by taking bus

don't know which number bus to took

my friend told me ... and we ran under the rain to the bus station

forgot to brought my jacket .. is very cold when I get into the bus

there's no one in the bus when we get into it except the bus driver

He asked me to sat inside (the window seat)

then I told my friend, can I push the air-conditioner to you?

Im very cold ... he said : you come out , sit outside ..

I was blur ... then he repeat second time

I just followed and he gave me his jacket ...

hmm ... this guy quite care his friend lo ~

I think his gf will feel warm and feel happiness

because she got a show consideration bf

he is the second guy I've ever met

in this world is hard to find those guy which take good care to other people

if you got it please treasure ...

got to get back to my work position ..

Bye(:

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可能这是我第二个诉苦的天地

我每次上来，什么都写

尽管开心不开心，特别不特别的事情；我都会写上来

可能你们觉得我很多东西写，可是并没有

有时候是因为懒惰，就没什么写

有时几天的事情放在一篇文章写完

最近开学了，相信我也有提到

我开始变得会说话了，不害羞了

还拿了班上朋友的号码+脸书+msn

还很庆幸认识一个也是很喜欢跑event的，他是个男的，蛮不错的

虽然他人有点害羞，他说他其实是个很活跃，很爱讲话的人；他不说我也感觉到

他给我的第一个感觉不是个害羞的男生

skip ---->>>>

最近觉得吖，人应该要学会珍惜

古人说：珍惜眼前人，不然吃亏是自己

我觉得说得很对

感情的事，真的不只有自己作主

还有上天把帮你作主

有个故事跟大家分享

一位女孩认识了男孩，双方在网上认识了

大家都知道彼此念同一间中学，有一次他们两个都在学校遇见了

不久后，双方都喜欢上对方了

可是就是没有人肯开口告诉任何一方

他们每一天都出去玩，出去透透风

有一次，男孩的家里发生了一些事情，离开了女孩

再也没有联络了

就这样一年过去了，因为男生一走了之，所以女生有了男朋友

女孩想了很久，终于鼓起勇气拿起手机发个短信给那男孩

女孩以为会跟男孩断绝联系，这时候男生回女孩：最近好吗

女孩先问男孩是不是喜欢自己？

男孩说：是，从去看演唱会那天他就喜欢上女孩了

女孩很开心，男孩也问女

当然女孩也承认了，可是，女孩正有男朋友，但是对她的男朋友没有感觉了

可是就是还没有分手
于是有一次，女孩瞒着男朋友跟男孩出去
女孩喜欢上了一件衣服，碰巧女孩要付钱的时候电话响起
男孩趁这时候替女孩付钱，表示送给女孩的礼物
可是，女孩不肯硬要把钱还给男孩
突然男孩说：你不必还钱，你要换钱就先把手伸出来
女孩很听男孩说把手伸了出来
男孩借此机会握住了女孩的手
之后，女孩在回家的路上都一直跟男孩信息
女孩不忍心欺骗男孩就一五一十地把事情告诉男孩
当男孩知道女孩有男朋友时便回复道：那你先把事情弄清楚再找他
就这样他们又没有联络了
之后女孩分手了，等待着男孩的信息


日子一天一天的过去
不知什么时候，女孩终于等到男孩的信息
男孩搬回原来的家，女孩感到很开心因为男孩再也不用离开女孩了
可是，男孩就是没有再提起跟女孩的关系
女孩感到很伤心，心情也开始感到失落了
直到女孩要考年终考试了，这是唯一一次的考试
决定女孩能不能升上大学，男孩就在这个时候提起他们的事情
男孩说：我突然对你又有回以前的感觉了，虽然我知道我这是来得很突然；可是我会等你，等你考完时才给我答案，你先专心考试，等你考完试再给我答案
女孩很开心，傻傻的专心他的考试什么也没想

考试完毕了，女孩终于松了一口气
虽然知道成绩不会很理想
但是至少痛苦的日子终于能够暂停一段时期
可是不好的事情即将发生
女孩已经忘记要告诉男孩那答案了
而且因为爸爸的病，而烦恼
有一天，女孩终于记得这事并找了男孩聊天
谁知道因为一些事情，女孩找了借口欺骗男孩说：我觉得我们最近沟通有问题，一起的事迟些聊
就是将女孩因爸爸的病而烦恼，所以做了这个决定好让自己的心情平复了再找个对的时机告诉男孩
两个月后，女孩再次提起这件事情
可是这次真的事太迟了，男孩说了不再要爱情
爱情不适合他，可是女孩还是硬要告诉男生自己的感受
结果被拒绝了
男孩说：他想了很久，还是做了这个决定，他变了~不值得让女孩等下去，怎样也好他们还是很好的朋友。。。
信息内容太长了，女孩看完后没有感到一丝伤心
很快的就接受了那句：我们还是很好的朋友
女孩真得很天真，相信了男孩说的爱情不适合他
结果过了几天，让女孩看见男孩对一个女孩感兴趣而且女孩自己觉得他们已经快在一起了
女孩开始起疑心，问了男孩变了是因为一个人对吗？
男孩回答说：是呱，不懂
女孩再也没有遗憾了，因为男孩真的布置得让他等下去了
真的下定决心彻底放下对男孩的感情



朋友，不知道你们明不明白我说的故事
怎样也好，想带个你们的是要你们珍惜眼前人
如果遇到真正相爱对方的就勇敢去表白
不要因为小小的事情，放弃了自己喜欢的人
否则后悔就来不及了，想挽回也很难了

Orientation Day

Finally, 12 April is reached
my first day of College
went there by KTM + LRT
took train with my Consultant, Senior
we chat for while
so fast, we reached the station which we need to get down the station
and walk to our College
Wow, his student reached there as early as he thought
then I leave my empty stomach and sat in the Auditorium for my Orientation Day
Oh My Gosh ! I sat at the auditorium around 9.30am
10am start the Orientation + Briefing Class
the class was not started yet, the auditorium was Full House
and they had to seperate the student (im include in the seperate session)
IT student had to seperate with the other student
(CRY) I dont want to seperate with SweeYen + Michelle
(the 2 gals I just recognise over there, my new friends)

after that , we went to the main building and get into the class
while waiting I was wondering how many guys study the same class with me ??
(heard my consultant said that most of the student which same class with me was Gal)
Im wondering y is my course same Department with IT?
what ever, just wait for the Lecturer for the Briefing Class
and I just hope it can go thru faster , because Im very hungry
pity my stomach, I let it felt suffer (ISH)
saw my Principal and Dr dont know what their name (Forgotten)
and they mentioned that some course of study COMPULSORY to go for the Leadership Camp
my course is including, no choice just have to follow the rules
but I think that Camp will be quite fun and interesting

Finally, I finish the Briefing
and the offer us Lunch
Fried Mee, Fried Rice and sirup
my gosh ! the sirup is so SWEET!!
i hate ! after the Lunch they brought us to a tour for my college
my College's Library is BIG
and got almost 4 building in KL
that's my first day in my College for the Orientation + Briefing Class


The day after, start my class
wee (:
mum fetch me today, because she was going to KL for something she had to done it asap
then I just follow her, and is quite near my College
follow my mum to that place
then around 12.45pm she fetched me to College
was very nervous today
dont know what to nervous
but my heartbeat was jumping very fast
then I recognise new friends
but not really close
and my Lecturer - Mr Lim was a man who very funny
like him la actually, at least when he teach wont feel like very boring
and he wanted us to introduce ourselves
said out our name, where we live, why were we interested in this course
then the guy sit beside me and another guy who sit beside + infront me live the same destination
and near my house, I wonder can I follow them to College when we got class??
(think too much la wei~)
my class was very small
but still Full House
happy that my course got so many people
hope to know those 2 chinese guys and gals in my class
today's class was finished earlier
because my lecturer got something to do ...
so wee (: can go home earlier
that's all for it, but actually was just writing for fun la
anyway thanks to all those who see what I write
and sorry for those who feel Im so stupid writing this type of thing over here
SORRY ~

GoodBye

丧礼办完了，事情已是事实了


打从我出世那一刻，我就成了他的孩子
出世的那一刻，他们都很疼我
还记得小时候，爸爸带我和妈妈到处游玩
每一次出外，他们都会拿着相机帮我拍照~
四岁半我就开始了幼儿园的生活
每一天，我都睡得很迟
所以每次上课都迟到~爸爸接我到学校
虽然爸爸都很生气，可是他都是很开心地接我到学校上课
用他的笑容跟我说声：再见
日子一天一天的过去，我来到了小学一年级
上课第一天，爸爸妈妈陪我上学
每个小朋友都会经历这么的第一次吧
第二天，姑姐接我上学
他说爸爸妈妈没有空要工作
我坐在地上猛地哭泣，希望姑姐会打电话要他们来陪我
可是，她却没有还责骂我要我在学校乖乖跟其他朋友上课
我却很不听话，之后姑姐就走了
老师便哄我，要我乖乖，他说爸爸跟妈妈放学会来接我回家
我便停止哭泣了，之后还认识了许多朋友
慢慢地，小学六年级毕业了；检定考试也考了不错的成绩
也顺利的，直接升上中一
可能是很像老人家所说的，小时候听话；长大就不听话了
我升上中学就开始不念书，不听妈妈的话
也变得很野性，成天跟朋友到外逛街，成天逃课逃学
中三大考成绩比起六年级，相差特别大
高一更不用说，更坏蛋了，反叛老师
差点老师就要告诉我爸爸了
直到人生在中学生涯的最后一次考试，得了很不理想的成绩
差点把我爸给气死，幸亏我的成绩算是及格
还能就读大学，就选了个科系来念
爸爸帮我搞定了大学的的文件，就等待开学的来临
我真希望爸爸能看着我读大学，找工作；再次带我们旅行，看我找到一个好男人谈个恋爱，结婚生小孩等等

可是，很不幸；爸爸没能看我完成这些事情就跟我们告别了
可能爸爸觉得很辛苦了，也不想让妈妈那么辛苦就选择离开我们
爸爸，我尊重你的决定
我会把答应你的事情完成，我做得比你想象中的更好
丧礼办完了，愿爸爸入土为安；一路好走，安息离去

再见了

♥

do u knw much bout ♥?
wad is it exactly ??
im blur
♥ is u ♥ him more than urself or he ♥ u more than himself?
any ideas? i hope i find the 1 he ♥ me more than ♥ himself

i rmb that i told him bout our ♥ we talk gain later
Later ?? is already 2months
i think it back now and my friend told me just now
he is quite a good guy , doesnt he ??
i answer : Mr T really a good guy, he treat me very good ; he'll care me ... etc
better than Mr H , cuz Mr H wont care so much than Mr T
I think my friend wil knw who m i talking


this few days i really review my memory wad is my feeling to him?
because of me , i let him dont have any confident in ♥
i knw i cant do anything
but i dint even reject him bout our ♥ rite?
i just answer talk later ...
i keep finding u to help me this and tat , i get to think wad is my feeling with u
when i tell myself NO, i dont have feel with u
but my heart is juz like so mess , impossible NO feeling
my mood is very mess now
because i dono wad to tel u now
last time u so suddenly and directly told me ur feeling to me
and now ? shud i do wad u done ?
shud i tel u directly ? the point is i scare to get reject now
i dont have confident for myself
i lost my brave confident
im scare , really very scare
because of yesterday i heard u said that ♥ is not important for u anymore
the most important for u now is to save more money because u wanna travel
u wanna go to London(my ♥ country) to meet up ur aunt, and Bali (the romantic country)


my friend ask me to tel him
he is a good guy
wad shud i do ??
will he see this post ?? will he come have a walk in my Blog??
will he leave me comment?
will he tell out his feeling with me nw?
(waiting for his msg, not even rply yet)


have to think how shud i tell him this thing~
nervous ing
or mayb i give up







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