16.12.11 I think you forget this day
The day which 3 years ago you said the same thing to me ...
3 years after u say the same thing
And the reason is because of her 3 years ago and after the same reason also
You ask what I'm thinking every time when with you those days
But I haven answer you told me we just can be friends
You get used the life being with her
Actually just because you don't want to get out of her life
Why are you so stubborn ?
Can't you think of others feeling ?
I can tell you what I'm thinking on that time
I was started thinking how to celebrate Christmas, cny, valentine and many other celebration with you
But when the day we hold, I really thought I'm dreaming.
Remember that I asked you am I dreaming, you pinch and asked is it pain ?
From that moment I knew I'm not dreaming
I can have more confident to plan all the celebration
Although you told me that you will be very busy
Maybe you won't have time to accompany me also
But I don't mind how busy you are
As long as after you busy maybe you will have free time to accompany me
But now, we are nothing
You are not like last time will keep on reply my msg
maybe I'm childish I thought you don't want to friend me any more
I thought that the day after you said be friend I want to go out in the midnight
I ask you don't care
What you've told me ? I still can remember it
But now ? What you have done ??
Then I told myself, you are busy
You are very busy
You are very very busy for your work
You busy and no free time to reply me
I knew I'm not mature than her
I knew I'm childish
I knew I'm not mature than you
Sometimes I'm mature, sometimes I'm childish
Maybe I'm always childish in your mind
But, now I'm not!
Just let you to be with her
Although I don't know whether she will back to you or not
Because I saw her photo look like she likes other
But both of you still keeps each others photo
Maybe this is call faith
For you love is blind
For me, my love is not blind
Once I really fall in love I am serious with it
But I can confirm you are blind with her
To your lover (her) :
请比我爱他
hahaha
Maybe is time to give up
My friend always told me, he didn't want to find you
What to do to wait for him?
He don't care about you why do you so care about him ?
Nothing to do for wait
If you love someone you will not think why I should wait him
You will think that because you love him
That why you will find a way to let him know
Although his heart is not with you
You will try every way to get in it
But, I waited so long
He just only like not care
Just let him choose the way he wants
And I just let go
Doesn't mean I don't love him
Just that he love you more than me
Or I shouldn't wait from the beginning and we shouldn't "try" in the beginning ?
No one knows what will happen tomorrow :)
If you loves me you will come back
But you are not ...
I'm tiring
If is mine, you will come
If isn't mine, you will never come
Thank you that you come before
Thank you that you appear in my life before
although our time is not long
I really cherish those outing days we have
Bye
