just for You

Idk you will saw this post or not.
but I think for you is doesn't matter maybe.
but if you saw this post
please don't angry me
I really want to tell out my feeling


I know I did treat you not like last time when we met.
I did treat you so indifferent
I dont hope to treat you like this
I know I'm jealousy
even a joke I also can make it become so seriously
I know what I want.
but I know I couldn't get it
you said : hope your 'sixth sense' achieve
it achieve in the middle of the way
and now it stop
I get the answer from you.
but, the answer is just the feeling
not anything

we didn't message each other so frequent recently
because we are busy
and I'm so emo when didn't get your message
last saturday, went to ASQ final
I was message-ing with one of my friend
I'm wondering why didn't you message me
at least one HI I will feel happy
when the show starts half way 8pm +
another person message me
wondering who is it.
when I look at it ...
damn happy that was you
suddenly get your message and you asked me to be careful
I reply and ask : what be be careful ?
I think you thought that I didn't went for the final
actually I specially asked.
I thought you don't know I went for final
or maybe you saw my status only message me
IDK but IDC la at least got your message.
Idk you did always tell people this or not.
but when you message to me I was so happy
alto you are doing your stuff but you still care bout me
are you caring me because we're best friend ?
or you caring me out of the relation of best friend ?

sometimes I really don't know your feeling
because you treat everyone the same thing
this few days I don't feel to chat with you
I don't feel to be so close with you
I feel to treat you badly
I feel to hate and angry you
not because I give up
just because I saw you and her are so close
alto both of you are playing
but sometimes I really can't accept to see and hear
I can act nothing in front but my heart is break on that time
you always say that I think too much
I know I really think so much
I can think something nonsense or something out of the box
why don't you take me out of those fantasy/dream/nonsense ?
but I did try not to think negative but it couldn't

I always tell myself, don't think too much
everything will be fine after all
all are just a joke
don't be serious, don't think to be mad between you and her
this few days you just didn't reply me.
last time you will still reply me
alto you fall asleep you will still reply me after you awake
but now you told me didn't heard the message ring tone
couldn't you check your phone ? don't you know I will reply?
this thing really make me sick !
I know now is 'fei chang shi qi' at least you say then I will stop message you
but you didn't
or maybe I shouldn't message because I msg the wrong timing ?

could we back to normal when the first time we met ?
I know I couldn't change you not to chat with them
I know you wish yourself are inside every girls heart
Libra is always don't have sense of security especially guys
my dear told me that why I can bear your nature, attitude
can I say that I like him but I don't care anything ?
Idk what is other people definition of like, especially him
but for me the definition is because he did something let me feel that I like him
sometimes, I should understand and ask him more about his thing.

I cried when I type this post.
I thinking about you.
maybe other people will think that I'm stupid
I just don't want to feel regret that I give up in the wrong timing

Kay

moody day

quite moody yesterday
was my lass class for my first sem.
assignment finish last minutes
early in the morning nagging by my Queen

11am+ went to take train to college
reach college friends was busy-ing printing their assignments
I just sitting on their place and take care their stuffs
time for class we went into class
and class was so free because lecturer has already finish teaching
then we had our break and my bad mood starts !

sky was black and it is going to rain soon
and I was worrying if 6pm still raining
because I forgot to bring umbrella
then I remember my consultant told me that he will drive to college this few days
then I tot could ask him fetch me home
but he is not free today
and my friend is not going to take transport with me
my feeling was like so emo when this 3 things come into my mind

I did not talk for minutes
and I was just sitting alone and not talking with them in class
I just think and think
pray and pray the god
do not rain when I finish my class
suddenly think about my lovely King
then I started cried
my friend walk to me and I just looked at her for a sec
and I continued my head down by the chair
they thought I cried for no one going home with me
But it is not.
just because I think of my King suddenly
so I cried

thank god.
it really stopped raining after my class
then I take transport alone with my phone(music)
but suddenly my friend get on to the bus
let me felt shock


My friends (college)
so sorry that make all of you felt like worry me
I'm okay
♥ all of you always
=D

17/7/2010

I think this post will show story with photos.

17/7/2010 - 11am ASQ Event @ Westin Hotel


Happy birthday to my dear Jennifer.
happy sweet 21st birthday
the present that four of us gave her.
hope she like it.





birthday girl

feeling

I like You does not mean that I ♥ You.
I agree what You said.
Actually no such thing that like = ♥

I recognition I like You
but sometime I cannot accept what You do to them
You are right, I am jealousy sometime
I do not like what your behavior to them
I memang hate it ! sometime ...

I knew I look difference this few days
I do not know why will I be like that
My apology to that and what I have did to You.
I am superstition
In your sign that all things are really like with your behavior
I cannot accept that
beginning, I told myself I could accept everything You did
I won't be jealousy
but now, the result is I will be jealousy, I will be mad
I try to told myself to calm down, they just friend
won't have anything happen
but You are definitely so close to them especially her
I just can try to hypnosis myself

waiting and waiting
I do not know I can wait until when
my 'sixth sense' told me is possible
but in reality, it seems like impossible
You told me : wish you're intuition won't let You disappointed
are You letting me disappointed now?
or actually my intuition are not accurate ?
just let it be nature

I have try to ask myself do not think too much
think about my college
think about my exam
think about my coursework
just leave the mind and do not think about him
but I could not did it

xtra :: I did not want to be cool with You. but your attitude and...
I do not like what You did to me and the same thing to them.
I know You will always do the same thing to all of us.
the thing which doomed we cannot change.
but I will let it be nature. I will not force anything
if I can

Kay

The Twilight Saga Eclipse Official Full Trailer (HD)

Oh my gosh ! My friends damn like Edward(Robert Pattinson) and Jacob(Taylor Lautner)
Is it hard to act the role of Bella (Kristen Stewart)
love 2 person in 1 time. gosh !
alto we know she love Edward much!

this move not bad ! waiting to watch the 2nd time
if my queen allowed me to watch with my cousin ! (:

July is the busy month for me.
need to prepare my exam.
got many events I want to go.

1. Accompany my dear to receive ASQ ticket (where is mine?)
Friend's birthday party
2. One day trip with sister
3. Deadline to hand over raise funds for 30hour Famine
4. Deadline for last Assignment in Sem 1
5. ASQ Final
6. MYFM birthday Function
7. Exam (august)


my heart is just with those entertainment event, function
I've to get prepare for exam only I can go for play and attend those event.

finally I got his msg.

for waiting around 6hrs.

was too worried.

I dont know why.

at least get his rply

and now my mood is finally back to normal (:

Need all your help please, Thank You (:

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he did know. but I don't know.
as a stupid waiting and waiting the answer.
i think this relationship will not get start.
hahahahahahahaha

as what I wrote in my FB and what Loong replied
sometimes staying beside will be happy also
















just wait la..........................until the day I give up.



but Idk when I will give up

all in one

recently lazy to update my blog
software for uploading pictures is too slow


Finally I got my HP netbook.
I sign the TM package and get this netbook for free but with contract.
(took it very long time, now only I upload.)



28June2010
today I'm having a presentation and it have to use BM to present.
faint! because I hate this language
I wear formal as an OL(Office Lady)
I hate to be. need to wear high heel shoe.
it makes my leg painful.

It got 4people in my group.
and we suggeest to be the first group to performance.
alto we are nervous, scare
late present or early we also have to present
so we be the first group.

time pass fast. is break time.
we just stay in class and take some photos
soooooooo enjoy with it.

after the class end. we go for k session.

many of them can't join us.

so just 4 of us go enjoy our k session

1 of my friend invite her friend to join us.

but he leave early before the k session end.

sooooo waste. hahahahahahaha

our k session end up at 5pm.

then we take photos

then I take transport with my friend

and when we arrive to the monorail station it rain heavily

we can't walk there to take bus. add on im wearing the high heel shoe

I try to take off my shoe and wanna run but I can't

so my friend just make a phone call to his father and ask him fetch us at the monorail station

I will never wear that high heel shoe anymore.

except for the presentation.

it really make my leg hurts and feel like going to broke.

1 July 2010

suppose to have a replacement for GLT today

wake up early 6.15am(wake up late)

then make a morning call for my friends.

then I just prepare the things that I wanna bring.

unluckily our lecturer does not here for class

waste our sleeping time. ISH

while waiting. they capture this ->

(just upload 1)

11am + we go for our lunch -> Yong Tau Foo

environment not bad. food quite good but expensive.

the worst thing is the staff. got 1 aunty sooooo rude.

we ask her something she talk so straight and rude to us.

she's black listed. xD

12pm is time for the next class for GLT

then we walk back to our college.

and the lecturer was here

he said wanna treat us eat for the reason of letting us came early for class but it is canceled.

then he ask what we wanna eat.

some say pizza. got people say Jogoya.

but finally, Domina.

while he is ordering. he doesn't forget that we going to have the presentation for cooking.

as normal. my team is the first again.

(will upload the photo for next article.)

after the presentation, lecturer said our presentation is 80% done.

but actually no need P.Point and blablabla.

when the third group presenting.

the pizza arrive. waiting them to finish and we going to start our pizza.

he is our lecturer. promoting the domino

I think the boss should invite him to promote their pizza. Lmao

buy 5pizza and we get free 5large pizza

so worth. but we still cant finish our pizza.

left 4boxes. and DIMC student da bao to the next class to enjoy the pizza.

they play so happily with my friend's chef shirt.

everyone say she is Dian Po (the comment in FB) but nt real la actually.

Astro Star Quest coming soon

MyFm birthday event coming soon

exam coming soon

will be going to these 2 events on July.

ASQ -> 24 July 2010 in Bukit Jalil indoor stadium

MyFm -> 31 July 2010 in Genting Arena of Star

Exam -> 1,2,7,8 August 2010 (nervous) have to prepare

god bless me !!

Shopping

go out with my dear today.
but didn't sleep well last night.
wake up so early and go buy breakfast with my Queen
then get prepare and get ready to shopping.
today plan to buy my formal wear which need to wear on Monday.

early in the morning throat very pain.
afternoon go tea with my dear at Pavilion
then went home sick dy.

38.2 -> dear said I'm high fever.
god bless my sick faster recover.

untitled

he know my feeling with him.
but I didn't get any answer just waiting and waiting.
not bother it. at least he know.
and just let it be normal, if he have the same feel will tell me directly(maybe not)
nevermind. maybe I will know it 1 day
but don't know when. I don't get hopes to it any more.
until the answer come. I don't want to get any hopes if I didnt have any chance.
he did ask me : did he gimme hopes. I just answer IDK.
maybe the answer is not important to him so I didn't tell any answer in my heart.


next Monday will be my presentation.
start getting bit nervous. Not prepare anything yet.
have to buy the formal shirt 2mr with my dear.
then if got much time we'll go for shopping.
long time didn't go shopping with her dy. Miss the day we went out.

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Busy recently. with my assignment.
it make my brain exploded.
having 3 assignments.
2 assignment done with individual and 1 assignment with group and presentation.
Had finish 2 assignment. but 1 more week will be my presentation.
nervous. Need to use Malay language to speak out.
I hate this language!!!!!


skip --->>>

Last week went for a movie with my friend.
actually I'm been 'cheated' to go for the assignment. Muahahahhahaha
after that we stay at McD which near our college.
then we do our assignment there.
after few hours, we suggested to had a movie.
then we went back to kepong and watched movie.
we watched
Love this movie very much. Damn nice.

Like Jaden Smith and also Jackie Chan

Watched 2 movie last week.
Sooooooooooooooo happy. (:

(Can't post the Toy story 3 trailer.)

Happy Belated Father's Day

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11/6/10

feel free today.
nothing much to do.
my mum bring me to jusco.
buy ingredient to make sushi.
then I ask some infor from my college friend.
she did make sushi before for his bf. *so sweet*

then we buy crab stick, seaweed, ham, cucumber.
just simple ingredient we got the japanese rice at home.
we reach there at 12.15pm, we reach home at 2pm around 3pm
my lunch become lunch + tea.
after get back home start to make sushi ~
wee(:
alto is not very success la. but still can accept.
first time ma. sure will fail.
but I promise myself I need to success the next time.

Evening 6.30pm
Alex and Jing come to fetch me and go for BBQ at Richard house
the BBQ session not start, something unhappy happens.
don't hope to say it.

after the thing happen, Alex didn't feel like wanna chat with me and my dear.
nevermind is ok.
I'm caring about it. as long as u feel happy with it then go ahead.
today's BBQ not really happy.
things happen let it past. don't feel sad with the past


Alex :: I know it will cost much to repair, but it already happened and she already feel so worry and wanna asked talk to u and settle the thing but u just don't bother her. I know what's ur feeling, if that thing was mine I will feel sad and mad oso. but she don't hope this things gonna happen also, she just to nervous etc.

Dear :: Don't be sad and hate urself. U don't hope it will be like this. but thing is happened it can't back to that moment. At least we got the knife from Pirnce of Persia. then we can go back 1 minute before it. xD anyway, don't hope to see u so sad la.


hope things will be fine after this. friends is always care for you everytime every moment.
treasure it.

Kay